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Al-fatihah - Tak sempat pun 6 bulan

Al-Fatihah dan takziah kepada keluarga kak Dij di Coventry.

Kepada mereka yang baca blog: http://www.pausetoreflect.blogspot.com/

yang I sebarkan semalam... Abg Hazli meninggal semalam on his birthday di Coventry.

Kak Dij is a self financed PhD student. The original ‘plan’ was that they entered UK with her visa and her fees and day to day expenses would have been bared by hubby while working in the UK. Abg Hazli was seriously ill with cancer (throat) (and tak smoking pun) and no money coming in, Kak Dij has had to juggle with a part time job, caring for her for kids and she was caring for Hazli too. Now that Abg Hazli dah tiada.. i dont know how she will survive...

From other's experience, there will be times when Kak Dij will not be able to work. Money is the last thing that she needs to worry about. It would be great if we can pool our resources to help her.

If you want to make a donation in any way at all.. just contact me! esp those in the UK.

delliya_zain@yahoo.co.uk 07753488692

Ps: Kak Dij is my sister inlaw's best friend. I could never imagine myself in her shoes... Could anyone? But semua nie takdir dari Allah... kita sentiasa diuji...

the Aries in ME

+Aries+ 8.4.79

Aries is far happier when he's talking about himself and his plans than about anybody or anything else (with the exception of the loved one, when he's caught in the clutches

I'of a romance). Once you get his interest-and lots of luck-hell be an attentive listener, especially if your ideas are exciting and progressive. He'll promote you to the skies, and offer you his time, money, sympathy and loyalty. When you're in the hospital, he may forget to send a card, but he may choose the hospital for you, drive you there himself and refer you to his own doctor (who will be superior to Pasteur and both of the Mayo brothers, of course). Once involved in helping you through a rough time, Aries will walk the extra mile without hesitation. But show your gratitude, please. He'll be deeply hurt, if not downright angry, when you don't appreciate his strenuous actions, which went far beyond the call of duty, and also probably far beyond what you needed or wanted. He enjoys doing favors; the larger the charitable gesture the better;

but the ram wants his credit when it's coming to him. If thanks are withheld, however, it probably won't keep him from helping again. His amazing faith in himself is matched only by his naive trust in others, which is why he's almost constantly disillusioned, and complaining that someone has let him down. Of course, he won't stay down long. He'll pick himself up, dust himself off, and soon be ready, willing and able to blast away again, after a typical binge of violent but brief depression.

Mars people are often accused of having a terrible temper. They have. But they also have a complete inability to remain angry, and once over with, the grievance is generally buried and forgotten. He's hurt and surprised that you still remember the rash things he said but didn't mean. Given the chance, Aries will apologize to his worst enemy, regardless of any dire threats he made in the throes of emotion. He seeks acceptance, even while he heedlessly and deliberately courts rejection. Aries people seldom become angry with individuals. You may get the shower of sparks, but the fire is actually directed toward an idea or a situation he finds intolerable.

But most Aries people are usually happier in business or the creative arts, where they're so desperately needed. Others may excel in planning strategy. Calmer heads and more practical minds may be better at efficient organiza­tion. But without the direct action, energy and originality of the rams, the most desirable projects would fall to the ground or make little headway

Famous Aries Personalities

Dean Acheson Bismarck Marion Brando Charles Chaplin Ilka Chase Julie Christie Joan Crawford Bette Davis Thomas Dewey Bernard Gimbel Harry Houdini Henry James Thomas Jefferson George Jessel Nikita Krushchev Clare Boothe Luce

Henry Luce Eugene McCarthy Andrew Mellon J. P. Morgan Wayne Newton Lily Pons Joseph Pulitzer Simone Signoret Harold Stassen Leopold Stokowski Gloria Swanson Lowell Thomas Arturo Toscanini Peter Ustinov Vincent Van Gogh Wemher von Braun

me:delliyazain

Your Personality is Very Rare (ENTP)

Your personality type is optimistic, curious, enthusiastic, and open. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all women and 5% of all men. You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

+ the void +

15th February 2007

‘’You can’t make old friends,

you can only lose them

and losing them you walk around

with a void inside that

you can never adequately explain.’’

BETH KEPHART, writer, in Into the Tangle of Friendship

Takziah + Alfatihah

Takziah+Alfatihah

26 June 06

by Delliya Zain

Call me emotional if you want.

Everytime someone dies,

even though I don’t know them,

tears come running down my eyes.

Like today I got to know about

the deceased of the Pahang Royalty

in the Manchester Metro free newspaper.

Sad and what a tragedy! Alfatihah.

Then I went on the net to find more information.

And found more heartbreaking news about arwah Hani Mohsin.

As I read his incident on Utusan.

I start to cry.

I felt sorry for Hani karmila

his dearest daughter age 9.

She reminds me of Taufiq my brother

who lost his father at the age of 8.

Arwah Hani Mohsin were excited to go for

a holiday with his daughter

but as we all know now he did not make it.

Arwah papa also wanted us (our family)

To go on a holiday.

But we were all busy.

Mama with work,

Indra with his then soon SPM,

And me .. I had an environmental test at UiTM.

So we did not say our goodbye.

Anyway if U the reader know Hani Karmila,

Just tell her that she is still lucky to have her mom.

I wish her all the best. Alfatihah.

Delliya Zain

* my sad feeling *

* my sad feeling *

July 2006 delliya zain

I have this sad feeling inside of me, every time I looked at my friend’s wedding pictures. Especially friends that was very close to me.

Of course I am happy for them Coz they look so lovely and I wish them all the happiness in the world!

Its just that I could not afford to go home to Malaysia and attend my friend’s weddings. I don’t know why I feel sad. It is just a wedding, and it was me who choose to be here in Manchester anyway.

But I feel sad and depress.

I guess these few friends of mine were friends that I grow up with, We've talked about love, live, mr right, and even how we wanted to have our weddings We shared our dreams together… Although we are not as close anymore.. But these few people make a BIG difference in my life. Especially in those few years when we start to learn the meaning of life and freedom.

I guess I am sad because I could not be there on their most important day. And what makes it worst is that I might not attend to many more weddings. Because I am here in Manchester. I have my reasons to be here. And yet its not easy to accept the reality of this matter.

It does not really matter if they sense my absence… What important is that they are in my prayers.

manja_dy

I dedicate this piece of mind to Fit, Kerry, Tatie, Rod, my cousin Intan, Zehan, Rin

thought of the day :

i am drowning.

pow wow

pow wow

A little closer to Allah...

10 Question Allah won't Ask...(from someone on friendster)

1... Allah won't ask what kind of
car you drove; He'll ask how many
people you drove who didn't have
transportation.



2...Allah won't ask the square
footage of your house, He'll ask
how many people you welcomed into
your home.

3...Allah won't ask about the
clothes you had in your closet,
He'll ask how many you helped to
clothe.

4... Allah won't ask what your
highest salary was; He'll ask if
you compromised your character to
obtain it.

5...Allah won't ask what your job
title was; He'll ask if you
performed your job to the best of
your ability.

6...Allah won't ask how many
friends you had, He'll ask how
many people to whom you were a
friends

7...Allah won't ask in what
neighborhood you lived, He'll ask
how you treated your neighbors.

8...Allah won't ask about the
color of your skin, He'll ask
about the content of your
character.

9...Allah won't ask why it took
you so long to seek Salvation;
He'll lovingly take you to your
mansion in heaven, and not to the
gates of Hell.

10...Allah won't ask how many
people you forwarded this to;
He'll ask if you were ashamed to
pass it on to your friends.

Read Carefully
Happy moments, praise Allah.
Quiet moments, worship Allah.
Painful moments, trust Allah.
Every moment, thank Allah

who do i hang on too?

30 November 2005

those who spend their time

protecting others

are the one

that really needs someone

to protect them

>>>

i wish my papa was here,

he was (and in my heart still is) my one and only hero.

when everything was falling apart

papa would tell me one of his stupid but funny jokes,

and suddenly all my worries goes away.

aidilfitri 2005

Aidilfitri 2005

-see picture

for every other things...

.... there is a ''master card''...

receiving a raya greeting from dee and ash.....

..... p r i c e l e s s !!!

-

salam aidilfitri dari manchester!!!

ampun maaf dipinta....

semoga Allah merahmati perbuatan kita!!

ikhlas; delliya&ashreen

>>>>

aidilfitri 2 0 0 5

oh hari raya..

only if i could celebrate raya

together with my family in malaysia.....

(sure bankrupt- habis kene kasi duit raya)

'raya' is a time to be with the family

this year is the first raya which i celebrate

with my so called husband ash..

its my first raya in manchester..

but its my 3rd raya in UK... 

i know for certain..

it would never be as festive as in malaysia with my family..

i guess i should be greatful that i have my loving husband by myside...

(rather than celebrating alone here in manchester....)

also i would like to say thanks to kak yus & abg lan,

kak kay and abg sepuq, kak rina & abg mufn and kak dina's family...

and semualah family yang kat manchester nie....

who invited us to their house..

as i have always had my hari raya in terengganu...

for me hari raya is never complete if i did not celebrate raya in terengganu... with nasi dagang, laksam, family picture in the morning...

sembahyang raya... hmmm and getting ''duit raya''

but this year i had nasi dagang and laksam at kak Dina's house!

anyway...

where ever i am...

and were ever you are..

hari raya is about celebrating...

so i have asked John my boss

for an unpaid holiday.

but Ash had to work on hari raya..

so i was still working on hari raya..

and has my cuti on the friday....

So for all my family and friends...

Salam Aidilfitri dari Manchester

Amput maaf di pinta....

halalkanlah makan minum etc...

and thank you for watching me & ash

& friends

with anuar zain on

ASTRO Ria

12 noon

First day of raya!!!

-camtulah i celebrate raya kat sini - simple je!

nak autograph??

semoga hilang rindu...

pandu cermat jiwa selamat!!!

dan beraya tu janganlah over-over pulak!!

delliya and ashreen

ps... NOPE I TAK MENGANDUNG LAGI!!!

nanti lah - insyakAllah

29th September 2001

29th September 2001

Al fatihah for my loving Papa

by

Delliya Zain

29th September 2001

is a date I will never forget!

Four years ago on this day

I found out that my Papa

had left me and my family for ever.

The memory of my mother

telling me on the mobile phone

just after my exams at UiTM,

in the middle of the FSPU court yard

is still fresh as it had just happened yesterday.

Mama said..''papa dah takada''

(papa is not here anymore)

I was shocked and dropped

my mobile phone right there and then.

I felt like running to him and save him.

But its too late.

My Papa left me without

any warning of sickness.

But the sign's was there.

Just a week before he died

he gave me a long lecture about

what was expected of me.

What I did not realize was that this

was my last few moments with him.

''Take care of Mama'' he said.

And me being me replied,

''Why?''

papa answered '' I am going somewhere really far away''.

I just thought that he had some job offer abroad.

and he continued ''It's your responsibility.''

'' Do not spend lavishly as we are not rich people'' papa said.

I knew we were never rich

but we were not poor and homeless.

But at that time,

he was doing very well with his job that

I thought that its about time our life be easier.

I thought wrong!

'' Study and archive success to the highest level'' papa said.

Papa has a phD in Sociology

and worked as a business consultant.

I am proud of his achievements

and yet he stressed the need for me

to archive the highest achivement.

(Yeah I'll do my RIBA Part III and my Msc!

I am just waiting for the right time.)

'' Kalau sekarang kita rasa rendah diri

dgn kawan kawan kita yang dah archived so much,

bila dah tua nanti kita akan rasa 3 kali ganda

lebih rendah diri kalau kita tak setaraf dgn mereka!''

Papa 2001

'' You had the coolest Papa'' Edri said.

Edri@Adriana my childhood best friend.

Amongst my friends Edri knew my arwah father most.

Its a pity I only realized that I ''HAD'' the coolest father

in the whole wide world after I lost him!

All I have now are regrets.

I miss my Papa.

As much as I am pitying myself,

I feel sorry for my brother Taufiq.

He is now 12 years old.

He had to loose his father

when he was 8 years old.

That is really young...

i could never imagine

my life without a father at that age..

(although come to think of it

when I was a teenager i wanted

to ran away from home! hmm)

I also felt sorry for my brother Indra

who was about to sit for his SPM exams.

Alhamdulillah he passed with flying colors.

He is now on a JPA scholarship in Japan

studying Artificial Intelligent.

I am so proud of both of my brothers!

I knew on that day I lost my Papa

I will be responsibly to take care

of my family.

Things had to change!

I guess that is why I am here in

Manchester.

Earning £pounds for my family.

(not much, but way better than being in KL)

His absence makes me stronger

and even a better person.

Dear Papa,

Forgive me. I miss you so much.

I will do my best to take care of the family.

I am happily married now to Ash.

I have archived so much in 4 years

and will do better each year.

I love you,

Your only daughter Dee.

Al-fatihah

keampunan

bila aku terasa dgn tindakan kengkawan aku...

aku selalu simpan di dalam hati...

mungkin kerana aku memahami situasi tersebut...

dan mungkin kerana.. aku tau.. kalau.. aku menyatakan isi hati aku.. atau menarik muka atau merajuk.... atau memberi sesorang itu a ''silent treatment''...

it will get worst....

jika aku menyatakan isihati aku.. sure org tersebut akan sakit hati...

last last aku diam jelah....

tapi.. bila ia belaku sebaliknye to my friends... silent treatment, tarik muka, kata2x kasar... etc... semua terjadi...

maafkanlah aku.... aku insan biasa...

conclusion - FED UP

Conclusion > Fed-up!

Dgn rasminye.... saya nak istihar..bahawasanye...

saya dah malas nak kisah.....  or even be nice to people.... ep my friends... (unless its those who has been there for me - they know who they are)

in the end kawan kawan jugak yang menyakitkan hati... lagi elok tolong org yang tak kenal langsung!!!

I am not SuperWomen!!!

Aku bukan SuperWomen!!!

by Delliya Zain

It is my nature to make friends.

It is my nature to care for my friends.

''U care too much about my friends''... that was what my arwah keep telling me and yet.. being the degil daughter... i keep on caring for my friends. Sometimes i tried to imagine how my world would be if i just dont care about my friends...

so lets imagine.... what if a friends ask a favour (any kind) and i said ''tak boleh lah... tanya org lain lah''

or... what if a friend need a shoulder to cry on .. and i said.. ops sorry thats your problem... you have to deal with it yourself... and keep quiet....

i am just not that person... i have been through hard times and i feel sorry for those who need help. with out people asking for help.. i will care and try to help in anyway i can....

Now.. as predicted by my arwah father... i am the one who get hurts....

There are those few people that really appreciates me.... but some just dont know how to say thank you. I feel that thank you is something that you must say and show. To show that u are thankful maybe is by a hug a simple gesture etc. I dont espect in the form of money or even presents... NOPE.... i help secara ikhlas.... i just need some appreciation....

I tak nafikan juga ada times yang a few great friends helps me bertalu talu... give me a place to stay... pinjamkan duit... tolong i pindah rumah... give advices.. etc... i would like U to know i am thankful to know you and i owe you my life... if i cant repay your kindness... Allah will... its like paying it foward... you tolong i... i tolong orang lain... and orang lain will help you.

i sedih when... i always the one who organised of other people go away party, surprise birthday... but when it was my turn no one seems to remember? But i tried to undersatnd that mugkin semua sibuk kot... its ok.....

some times.. its just me.. me being too caring that people salah anggap... If you are my true friends you.... would you think i do something to disrespect you? or make your life misserble? ignor you? purposely?!!! if it happens... surely because there must be a good reason... dont you think so? so fine.. it happens.. could you atleast come up to me an confront? you cakap you kawan i... tapi kenapa you tak faham i?

bila things like this happens... i nak minta maaf... i bukan super women... i make mistake... if you are my true friend you would forgive and understand.....

and if you still not satisfy.....

then go and get ur yourself a superwomen friend... coz i slips from time to time....

i wish you good luck on getting  your ideal superwomen friend!!!!

My Wedding Day

My Wedding Day

by Delliya Zain

July 2005

[is been 2 months since my wedding day-

a bit late for this hehehe]

I always dream of a lavish wedding..

at a grand hotel

with everything that is nice and fancy...

with glits and glamour....

But in reality

i could never afford it.

Sad? Nope i am greatful.

If so I had all the money in the world..

I think we should not over spend on our wedding day..

( I personally think i had a humble wedding)

I prefer to use the money to help the needy....

then again if i was rich.

Preparing the wedding was

mentally, emotionally, financially tiring!!!

My mom and I had lots of ideas for the wedding..

( I am her first and only daughter to get married)

but we had to surrender to the 'budget'.

My advice to soon to be married couple...

the most important thing on ur wedding are:-

-ur dress and his

-ur make up artist

-ur photographer and videographer

-ur 'pelamin'

-ur gubahan hantaran

-ur bilik tido

-ur invitation card design (*if u care at all)

(but date, venue, caterer and

'tok kadi' u needs to book

much2x earlier-lah kan...)

important does not mean expensive...

it just means it must look good...

as these item will be

on the photographs as evidence!!

it all depends on your

personal taste (citarasa).

Alhamdulillah the wedding went well...

I arrived a bit late at the mosque in the morning

for the 'akad nikah'

and even the hall 'Dewan Gemilang UKM'.

I think i just leave out all the not so happy tales.

(too many)

At the end of the day

somehow I fell that a wedding day is all

about posing for the camera...

(or is it just me?)

Me and Ash were tired

of smilling and posing fro the camera!!

Honest! Me tired of posing for the camera?!!

Betul!

What i really want to tell about my wedding is...

I was surprised at the help and support that

my mom and I received from

my family, relatives and cousin, friends from every where,

my friends sisters, my brother friends,

my mom friends who are lecturer, professor and even Dato' ,

my mom students, my arwah father friends...

And others who I dont even know.

From the bottom of my heart-

t h a n k  y o u!!!

- me and my mom really apppreciate it!

Special thank you to:-

- my mother Dr.Rahani A.Kadir..

  without her i could never afford a wedding.

  love u Ma

- my brother Indra M.Zain

  who came back from Japan for just 4 days!!!

  and made his friends help do the 'tempurung'

- my brother Muhamad Taufiq M.Zain

  who agrees to carry the 'bunga manga'!

-All my Terengganu relatives, ateh&pakteh, uncle bee n family,

yongohziz n family, aunty saba n family, cikdedah and family,

achikman n family, makdek and family, toksu etc...

-thanks to mak teh & pak teh, intan & khazni, nadia & bf, wanny,

firdaus, apai, wak and family, aunty sue... etc

- thanks to Dilla and her sister izati...

- thanks to Ikin... amillion thanks to her...

  for the 'tempurung' and for helping out at the hall

- thanks to Edlyna for those nites that she came and help with the tempurung

- thanks to Tiar for helping out in so many ways.

- thanks to Baby and Khariz... for being there for me

  and khariz for being my MC.

- thanks to my ex- convent friends esp geng gagak hitam..

  ida, tuty, tati, julie, nadia, angah etc. i am very happy u girls help out!

- thanks to Rod and Meen....

- thanks to Bad!

- thanks to Nash for sending indra to the air port...

- thanks to 'meor' for the lovely montage..

- thanks to Hazlee for the music!!!

- thanks to Kak Yus and Abg Lan for

  letting me stay at their house and

  let me save money for my wedding!!

- thanks to belinda chan for helping

  me out with wedding shopping!

- thanks to Jin and matt for the never ending suport

- thanks to Abby for 'shidie'!!!

- thanks to 'shidie' and friends!!!

- Actually thanks to everyone..

if i missed any name...

A million appology!!!

I love all of you...

thanks alot for ur help,

support,

wedding presents,

attandence at the wedding...

i will sherish the things that u have done for me...

Thank you Again....

Although my wedding was not in

a hotel... but

You made my wedding a

wonderful wedding...

and i am happy....

Regards

Delliya Zain

Lost and found

Lost and found

The Lost and found
by Delliya Zain
Dec 2004

I know I found ‘it’
When I stop searching.

I am searching for ‘it’
Coz I have lost ‘it’….

It has always been mine
it has always been there
where I first found ‘it’

Did ‘it’ gone missing?
Or was it me who
Forgets and got lost?

I keep on searching and searching
Only to know that
It was never lost
It has always been there..

It is the never ending love of Ash!

Finders keepers!

(sorry mana boleh share)

Confused

Confused

by Delliya Zain

Dec 2004 

Feeling like an idiot
Feeling like a fool
Feeling so lonely
In my own web
construct by me

I don’t know why
I did the things I did.
I don’t know why
I did not do the things
I was supposed to do.

Waiting for something
to happen
Waiting for something
to take charge
Waiting for this moment
to go away….. forever.
Waiting for the unknown
Is like waiting in the dark alone.
Wondering could it ever get worst?

I am full of waste
I am full of sins
Nothing I do is good
Nothing I do seems even close to right.

Questions keep playing in my head.
Instead of answers to my questions
I end up with more questions
to my never ending questions.

Who am I?
How did I get myself here?
Would I ever learn from my mistake?

Confused?
Nope.
Just plain stupid.

Why don’t you just hit me
and wake me up
from this dreadful dream.

Oh.. how I wish it is just a dream.

My mission

My mission

I want you to know
That my mission in life
is hunt you down.

My mission created by you
is to make you regret
the things you did
that make me cry.

I will never let you
get away with all those lies
I will never forget
what u did to make me
feel small, useless and ugly.

My mission is
to prove you wrong!
My mission is
to make your feel sorry
for the things u did!


From now on
you are my
Favourite enemy.


(kau ingat kau bagus?!!!)
this is dedicated to my friends who got hurt recently...
hang in there!!!

bReaKinG uP - SuCks

bReaKinG uP - SuCks

breaking up
by delliya zain
october 2004

breaking up hurts the most when
a few days before the BREAK UP
you and the one who ditched you
were having so much fun
you did not see it coming at all.

breaking up hurts the most when
you have made so much sacrifice
to move to another country,
change your job,
loose your friends,
in the name of LOVE
only to know he or she is leaving you for
some stupid reason or worst 'person'.

breaking up hurts the most when
you love that person so much
you believe in him or her,
you accept himor her as for who he or she is,
you would do anything for him/her,
however he or she would not do the same for you.

breaking up hurts the most when
all those beautiful, passionate and loving words
were only lies to keep you with himor her
for his or her own advantage.

breaking up hurts the most when
you suddenly woke up from the wonderful world
of deceitfulness,
only to discover that you have been fooled and
your hearts crushed into pieces
that makes you feel so stupid,
you loose all your confidence towards life,
and you feel everyone else is lucky but not you.

breaking up hurts the most when
the person you thought were your best friend
the one you trust
the one you rely on
turns out to be your enemy

breaking up hurts the most when
after all the time that has been spent together
after all those hearts to hearts talk
after the huge sum of phone bills
he or she have the nerve to
N O T  b r e a k   u p  with you face to face

other example via
note, phone, on the phone msg, text msg, email, to your secretary, by a friend or worst not saying anything at all

I dedicate this
Emotional Feelings
to my dearest friend in Oxford
she is a wonderful and strong women
i know she will get what she wants in life
all this shit happens for a reason
and the reason would only be for the best.

luv dee

Growing Up

Growing Up

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Growing Up.(by delliya zain)
JULY 2004

Once upon a time when I was younger,
I always feel that being 25(age) or more
would be the age when I have control of my life.

Unfortunately at this very moment
I am confused, depress, lost and out of control.
Yet I am learning from all this "shit".

I know there would be sunshine after the rain!!!
I am patiently waiting for it to happen.

But I have learnt.

Making decision is easy.
But making the right one is the hardest.
It takes a lot of risk.
It just depends on how we handle the risk.
Or how much risk we are willing to take.
Lots of consideration must be taken.

When you gain some.
You'll lose some.
I lost a lot!!

I miss Aberdeen and my dearest friends.
Aberdeen is a peaceful and friendly place.
Just like in a fairy tale.
Had friends that treat me like family.
We had fun together and we cried together.

Yet, I left.
I left the ever so perfect environment
of faithful and fun friends.
To an environment so evil.

Maybe that's why it's red. (Manchester)
Nope, I do like Manchester.
I just haven't found the right
people to be with I guess.

I know I can't please everyone.
Yet I won't hurt anyone on purpose.

It's hard being alone in strange new place.

Some people like me.
And some don't. (Doesn't matter)
If they take some time to get to know me
I know they'll enjoy being my friend.
But if they don't get to know me at all,
Yet hate me, I pity them.
It shows that person's personality
and I don’t think I want to be friends
with those people.

People talk.
So when they talk
What ever I do
will still be wrong.
So I'll play dumb.

I know what have happened to me
would make me a better person
and stronger.

I am also thankful that I have met
With some people that trust me.
Care for me and gave me a job,
which caused chaos to my life.

Yet it's a blessing in disguised.
(hope so)

I can only plan my journey.
But Allah makes it happens or not.

I hope this phase of life
will be over soon.
InsyakAllah

It is just part of growing up.

THe ReaSoN

[03 Sep 2004 | Friday] THe ReaSoN

- HooBaSTaNK dedicated to my love ashreen

THe ReaSoN - HooBaSTaNK

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new and the reason is You

[x4] I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do And the reason is you

power puff girls

I am married, but in love with power puff girls, barbie etc. i guess i am young at heart... do i have grow up and be boring??

babies? hmmm babies or my RIBA Part 3? the answer is pretty obvious.. but not an easy decision.. nope...  nothing is easy...